late nights, deep thoughts, good music

 

 

what today feels like... it's feels like.... i don't know. i can't describe what i feel today. a little bit messed up, heavy, sad, i wanna scream and cry out loud. i feel sad but i don't know what should i do.

you know... when you get older, you will get more responsibillities. this and that, here and there, you have so many things to do, and lots of things to be completed. but you didn't know what should you do. 

and also, nobody will tell you about what you supposed to do. you have to figured out by yourself.

ha ha welcome to this cruel world, baby.

it's feels like you have to go somewhere, without maps, without time to be prepared, and emty hand. But everyone expect you will be there. Nobody care about what path you have to chose, nobody care if you get lost or trapped in an endless road, you have to face it by yourself.

Maybe you will get a little help from some kind-hearted people out there, but back again, the one and only who will save you from anything that will happen it's only yourself. 

you know what? you can't count on other people, i'll repeat it again : you. can't. count. on. other. people.

what you can expect from them? they have their own life. they have a bunch of problem too. they can't always be there for you although you always be there for them. 

Sure... they can leave you anytime. Maybe today, tomorrow, next week, or maybe next second. who knows?

and i'll tell you something : people say goodbye in a good or bad way. Everyone have their own choices, they can choose to go or stay in your life. if they choose to go, you can't do anything to keep them.You don't have to beg people to stay in your life because if they want to, they will.

.....

I don't know. i think growing up is not that easy. i wanna go back into my childhood phase. haha

i really really hope that you guys, have a great life. i hope you can see good things for each and everything that has happened or will happen. i hope your day will filled with joy and happiness. be strongggggg!

 

anyway, i listen some music while i write this random night thoughts, and suddenly a song (rehat) by kunto aji was played. i'm speechless. "tenangkan hati, semua ini bukan salahmu. jangan berhenti, yang kau takutkan takkan terjadi"

:)